Billie有天做了一個惡夢，夢中的她自殺了
本來以為大家會感到難過
卻意外發現身旁的人、其實從沒有真心喜歡過她
從惡夢中醒來後Billie非常難受，還好哥哥就在身旁
聽她分享、給她安慰
並一起將這個夢和情緒寫成這首Everything I Wanted
Billie Eilish – Everything I Wanted
Everything I Wanted 歌詞翻譯/旁白
I had a dream 我做了個夢 I got everything I wanted 夢中我擁有了曾渴望的一切 Not what you'd think 和你想的不同 And if I'm being honest 如果我說了真心話 It might've been a nightmare 可能會是場惡夢 To anyone who might care 對那些或許會在乎我的人來說
Thought I could fly 以為我能飛翔 So I stepped off the Golden 所以從金門大橋上縱身一躍 (1937年至今，已有超過1600人從舊金山金門大橋跳橋自盡 這筆人數還不包括遺體沒被發現的) Nobody cried 沒人為我哭泣 Nobody even noticed 甚至沒人察覺 I saw them standing right there 我看到他們就站在那裡 Kinda thought they might care 以為他們或許會在乎
I had a dream 我做了個夢 I got everything I wanted 夢中我擁有了曾渴望的一切 But when I wake up, I see 但當我醒來，我只看到 You with me 在我身旁的你
And you say, "As long as I'm here 接著你說: 只要我在這裡 No one can hurt you 就沒人能傷害妳 Don't wanna lie here 我不想說謊 But you can learn to 但妳可以試試 (適當的欺騙與無視，是對自己仁慈) If I could change 如果我能改變 The way that you see yourself 妳對自己的看法 You wouldn't wonder why you are here 妳就不會懷疑自己存在的價值 They don't deserve you” 他們根本不配擁有妳 (沒錯!!創造並且相信自己的價值! 不要讓隨便一個誰來對我們又是定價又是殺價的!!)
I tried to scream 我試著放聲大叫 But my head was underwater 但我此刻卻溺在水裡 (無力感來自於無法求救，就算呼救也沒人會聽見) They called me weak 他們說我膽小懦弱 Like I'm not just somebody's daughter 像我不是誰的平凡女兒一樣 Coulda been a nightmare 這本該只是場惡夢 But it felt like they were right there 但他們的存在卻如此真實
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago 昨日彷彿已是去年 But I don't wanna let anybody know 但我不想讓任何人知道 'Cause everybody wants something from me now 因為現在大家都想從我身上得到些什麼 (也許是名聲利益、也或許是單純對Billie創作的期待) And I don't wanna let 'em down 而我不想讓他們失望
I had a dream 我做了個夢 I got everything I wanted 夢中我擁有了曾渴望的一切 But when I wake up, I see 但當我醒來，我只看到 You with me 在我身旁的你
And you say, "As long as I'm here 接著你說: 只要我在這裡 No one can hurt you 就沒人能傷害妳 Don't wanna lie here 我不想說謊 But you can learn to 但妳可以試試 If I could change 如果我能改變 The way that you see yourself 妳對自己的看法 You wouldn't wonder why you are here 妳就不會懷疑自己存在的價值 They don't deserve you” 他們根本不配擁有妳
If I knew it all then would I do it again? 如果早知道，我還會做出同樣的選擇嗎? Would I do it again? 我還會做出同樣的選擇嗎? (如果知道沒人會在乎、如果早點發現自己的價值 夢中的Billie還會選擇自殺嗎?) If they knew what they said would go straight to my head 如果他們知道，他們所說的每句話，我都會記在心上 What would they say instead? 他們會改說什麼呢? If I knew it all then would I do it again? 如果早知道，我還會做出同樣的選擇嗎? Would I do it again? 我還會做出同樣的選擇嗎? If they knew what they said would go straight to my head 如果他們知道，他們所說的每一句話，我都會記在心上 What would they say instead? 他們會改說什麼呢?
文末小記
(小記寫於2020年4月26日)
今天興致一來的想用果汁機打杯夢幻的草莓牛奶喝
結果不知道怎麼的，打著打著，牛奶就被打發了?
不想浪費，所以硬是吞了半杯的草莓牛奶泡沫
結果脹氣脹到我以為自己會變成一顆氣球
然後痛苦的飛走 (´_ゝ`)
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